Today was my first day of sophomore year in high school ! Even though it is a very big struggle I do go to public school. When I woke up this morning I was excited but I was in complete pain. My leg was tingling, and it was just overall hard to move because it felt like pins and needles all over my body.
I got up , eventually, and got ready just like any other normal teenager. Once my family and I were in the car I started getting stressed and anxious about seeing everyone again. I have numbness and paralysis in my right hip down to my toes so I use a cane to help me walk. I prayed to God for the strength to get me through today and give me peace. He answered my prayer.
I know it might not seem like it, but it’s very overwhelming to go to highschool with a cane especially because, 1. I physically dont look like I need it, and 2. I know people are going to talk because I look healthy.
I had multiple people give me weird and nasty looks just because they are uninformed. I had people tell me ” you just want attention, you really don’t need help walking.” I try and ignore them because I know what they say isn’t true , but sometimes it still hurts.
Sometimes its hard because people want to hug me and talk while standing. Somdays I’m in so much pain I can’t be touched, my light weight clothes hurt my body. On the McGill Pain Index CRPS is ranked more painful then childbirth. People just dont understand.
As the day went on my pain got worse but I stuck through it, and made it till the end of the day. I want people to understand I am a normal kid. Some things , like school, is just a hard challenge. But it wont stop me.